Just me..... - Thoughts

Thoughts

Oct. 11th, 2008 at 5:12 PM

I realized today I feel lost again. So much is going on and swirling around my crazy head that I'm not always sure if I'm coming or going. However, I've done great at hiding it every where, including home. Does that need to hide ever end or does just keep happening because it is your safe place?

CT passed gay marriages yesterday!!! Awesome news and up till just over two years ago, I would have been right at town hall as soon as I could have and gotten married. Funny how life changes, huh?

Location:home
Mood: contemplative

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dianaoftheriver wrote:

Oct. 11th, 2008 09:36 pm (UTC)

I hide. I have gotten better and reduce the amount I hide, but I still hide pieces. I think part of it is safe space. The other part of it for me is shame. May you find what you need so you don't have to hide. *hugs*

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sundays_moon wrote:

Oct. 14th, 2008 08:43 pm (UTC)

I completely agree with you. A lot of my stuff is shame and there is a ritual in Grandmother Moon on shame that I have tagged to do. I just need to actually do it.

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sifarat wrote:

Oct. 12th, 2008 09:49 am (UTC)

I'm sorry that you are feeling this way. I don't think that it does end, as things get better you just feel the need to hide less. Years ago when my hiding was at its worst, I kept putting myself out there, again and again. It got easier and I started hiding less. But I was also working on the things that were contributing to the feeling as well. I know that this wouldn't work for everyone though.

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sundays_moon wrote:

Oct. 14th, 2008 08:42 pm (UTC)

You're completely right. I do work on the things that cause me to feel this way. I just lose track sometimes and end up back at square one, with a quicker jump back up time then before. Plus getting it out is often a great way to see what the real issue is and then know where to take that first step.

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